And here I go, losing my control;

// 12:39 AM

20090712

character sketching at iluma today was fun. okay also kind of tiring, and at some point lackluster, and stuffy, and neck-cramping, and.. and.. and.

well okay maybe not so fun.

BUT. it's always good to be just sitting around, doodling crazily and laughing at each other. company is always wonderful to have, especially when they're the people you can just hang loose with.

caught up with Grace C over dinner, such an unexpected presence! but it was still great to see her :] i sppoz some of the others were wondering since when were we so close, i don't have a clue either, we just.. bonded together i guess. it's so hard to find girlfriends in DMD year 3 can, i still miss the hatters a lot D: but anyways, Grace is so wonderful to be with, or rather, sometimes i'm just grateful for the tiny slips of girl time we have.

i didn't know zi hao was the 2d concept guy, i always thought he was the 3d technical staff, you know, i imagined the maya pros to look like him. -stereotype streotype profiling!- guess i was wrong, GEE YOU LEARN SOMETHING NEW EVERYDAY :D
his hand-inked/painted shirts were really stunning, i'm glad i managed to chope one! dude can really start a business doing those shirts, they were snapped up like half-priced Zara shoes. well there were only 3, and ange and i manage to pilfer one each. heeee. but the downright lamentable thing is that since they were done [oh so beautifully!] in ink and watercolor, they won't last the minute you slide them in the gaping maw of the terrible washing machine. such a wondrous invention that keeps our garments hygienic and protects us from yesterday's germ infestations, and yet is robbing us of this fantamogrisphous piece of work.
anyone knows how to fix watercolor on shirts? :C

hi, my consultation fees start at $50/min.

// 8:34 PM

20090705

i have just had an epiphany.

[actually it's pretty much the same as all the other epiphanies i had, just that maybe i will actually remember it longer this time.]

this is the last year of my teenage life, after all, and i am determined to be able to look back on february 10th 2010 at 2359 hours and not regret anything, and remember that it was a fun 365 days.

as for what the epiphany actually was, well.

if i was going to say, that wouldn't make things interesting now would it :D

// 9:48 AM

20090626

holy shitz.

r.i.p. michael jackson.

read more on CNN and BBC.

// 2:15 PM

20090624

TRANSFORMERS: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN AHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH

cough.

wasn't bad, kinda messy though, i couldn't really tell who was going down in all the chaos. but i guess like ym put it, we're all there for the cg eye candy 8D

on a previous note, i guess it's probably weird to be thanking people for talking to me, but i want to anyways. i think i'd have emaoed to crumbs without all my friends always being there for me and putting up with my rants. so whether it was out of curiosity or concern, thanks guys for all the phone calls and msn conversations and text messages, especially when i really needed them during periods of drama/politics in my life.
guess i'm that kinda person huh, being almost parasitically dependent on my friends for support and morale. should learn to stand on my own, i know. well after this particular episode i know i can't rely on people all the time. the real world will suck 65% of the time, so i just gotta deal with that.

okay okay irrational moment of emotional turbulence is well and over. :D

i heard there was gunna be no school next week whoopee! i wonder if the same goes for the JCs, cuz that way that way that way.. GIRLFRIENDS TIME 8D

// 12:36 PM

first meal i had in Taiwan! fried carrot cake aha. but i'd soon discover that everything in Taiwan was just about fried, fried, and fried.

fried oyster pancake.. more starch than egg :C

minced meat rice. not bad.

Ximen, the Shibuya of Taiwan and also where our hotel was. yay.

Shilin Food Center. the place is asking to be burnt. and the stench of fermented beancurd was EVERYWHERE D8

cuttlefish balls. very very very good, and i'm not even a fan of cuttlefish D:

shishamo. also pretty damn good.

er more fried edibles. they prepare them the Shilin Street Snacks chicken way style, cut and seasoned.

okay i wouldn't be taking photos of all these if they weren't good 8D

geological park filled with mushroom rocks. adz will be ecstatic.

xiaolongbao from the original Din Tai Fung

fried rice there is also awesomeness

Old Street of Wufen, a nice small coastal town.

yong tau foo cheat our feelings, the fishballs were 90% flour.

local mochi

train tracks.
i not-so-secretly think trains are the best form of public transport. not MRT trains, but long-distance trains like the Shinkansen. they're more comfortable than airplanes [with more legroom too!], quieter, and you get really lovely views. [not to mention the toilets are cleaner too eheh]

went up to Taroko Gorge

mountains

more mountains

there's only one highway around these mountains and gorges, and prone to rockfalls. so we were all teetering on the edge of our seats and wondering whether we'd get crushed from above or crash to the bottom whenever the bus slid around a steep curve. seriously adrenaline-pumping man.

spaghetti at a food court there. not bad. my last meal before i left.

// 12:05 AM

20090613

am feeling extremely stupid and ~~used~~ upset now.

going away for a week, hopefully when i get back i'll be up and ready to kick the shit out of some people. metaphorically or physically, you decide.

either that or just unload the dust in my eyes into as many buckets as i can, and just.. get a grip. or something. i don't know anymore. i don't think i can possibly do or say anything that can change anything that has happened.

shit i'm such an idiot.
for believing you, for trusting you, for everything that was a lie in the end.

// 11:54 PM

20090610

"weigh the importance of the work you're going to do there vs the work you will accomplish here"

"don't think just go"

"the experience and exposure you gain will really help you"

i'm sorry, i know i'm the most indecisive person in the world and that probably annoys some people a lot. it's like saying hi i'm given so much opportunity and here i am thinking about stupid things on the side and hemming and hawwing and wasting everybody else's time.

i just don't know if i have the courage to go forth, overcome the challenges, and come back hopefully a better person. i guess i'm just looking for some form of reassurance that i'll be alright there, yes i know, i'm such a sheltered baby. :C

thank you kf for the pizzaz and b-milk ./chorus

// 12:51 AM

20090606

major update here, so bear with me. lots of food photos ahead, and i will therefore not be held responsible if you get hunger pangs while viewing these at 2am.

it was that restaurant's opening at Illuma, what's it called, Ebisboshi Shotengai? a couple weeks back. interior was nice, but the food is.. not worth the price.

the ghost of YS

Zakary in his kishidan uniform

food rations! bowl's bigger than my face 8D

glorious [but sadly rather measly] fried rice

3 cool people and 1 blur of badger.

looks damn freaking good doesn't it. too bad it's lamb :C

the background actually looks like they're in Japan!

pretty Ciel and Ange

--

another day, another place.
met up with the girls to just catch up, hang out. have i ever mentioned how much i love being with you guys? :D

Crystal Jade with Finny [above] and Char.

my awesome congee. damn i love their congee.

Finny's fried udon with black pepper chicken. the photo doesn't do it justice, it's really good.

hopped over to Big O later for some sugar therapy and met with the others there.