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20051007 : 6:30 PM
i lef the classroom today with a big fat grin onmy face. hell, i've always found chinese easy. haha. somebody deflate my big fat ego for moi please, arigatou gozaimashita. haha again. but then again, all i gotta do is to think of my mads grades in davey jones' locker. lucky me. i pity my parents, to have raised such an abominable child- "can you imagine, she's absolutely hopeless at mads. an awful disgarce to her family, or so i've heard. Shocking!" then again, i've always been blind and deaf and dumb when it comes to these sort of things. .... i suppose a lot of people find me rather thick-skinned and loudmouthed. well, the latter is probably right. i can't seem to stop talking. or whining. heh. but the former.. a lot of people probably think i just laugh it off when people tease and insult me, some of them not ill-wished, i hope, and i guess when i just smile and laugh or come up with a retort they suppose i'm oblivious or impervious and i don't really care what they say. truth is, i do care. i've always cared a hell lot about what people think of me, what people see when they look at me, what people will say behind my back.. so i guess i act tough all the time now 'cause i don't ever want people to see the true insecure vulnerablle weak me that can be easily hurt by words i suppose, not like the last time, when - oh gawd i nearly started remembering those years. i wish i could forget that pain, that hurt. i suppose all my friends have got it lucky for them. being able to sail through school, from fmps to fmss, some even in the same kindergarten, all of em so friendly and familiar with each other. my own primary school years was horrible. rvps sucked, but that other place was worse. |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
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