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20060118 : 8:58 PM
what happened to all the time?? flash, and we're now secondary four. i don't feel any senior though. i still feel like i was back in sec2, struggling through school and making sense of life. the other day i was in manga class and Mel and the others seemed to have discovered that i was gonna be 6teen for the first time. "You're so old?!" incredelous tone here, glasly provided by Jacelin. it's the big O heading my way like a fourteen-wheeler. my mom want sot plan a sweet 6teen bday party for me, can you believe that? i mean, sweet and all, but with my cousins? fom both sides? at the same time? i can just imagine the chaos that will ensue. lately i've been feeling really distant from Graceygummy. i'm sensing an undertone of cool indifference here, and i don't get it. well actually i do. i'm always doing things that hurt her, upset her, piss her.. take the dover games failed attempt. i sprained her knee because I PUSHED HER. i don't know why i did that. and just last week i kinda impled that she was fat. i don't know why i did that either. it's like sometimes there's this mean vulgar demon inside me waiting for an opportunity everytime i do or say something. waiting.. to reveal the ugly side. i have to be so careful of what i say. i don't want history to repeat itself. but it has, so many times. i'm afraid. |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
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