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20060301 : 9:24 PM
i am having suicidal thoughts now. why is chemistry so traumatizing?! i think i'm going to take one look at the O level chemistry paper and drop dead. i can jsut see the headlines: Girl Drops Dead From Chemistry Shock *slaps self* what am i gonna do?? suddenly time seems so very short.. and too fast.. let's try to talk about happier times. i was just surfing round on Youtube and i watched a 3 min clip about South Park which positively left me hysterically laughing. i had no idea that crude cartoons could be so humorously vulgar. this particular one was about Santa and Jesus. then i watched several anime spoofs. some were tearjerking, some were monotonously lame, some were plain out funny. but i still wanna watch Battle Royal.. *whines* oh well it's like i'm just rambling on and on about irrelevant stuff. i don't know why, but lately i've been starting to feel.. stretched. i may not look it, but i can feel it inside. thinned out, like i've been pulled too many times. i guess it's the way everyone's behaving around me that's affecting me. i keep trying to give everyone my attention, when sometimes all i wanna do is just stare out the window as the bus trudges on the air-condition at full blast the upper deck empty it's when i can just think nothing. space. white. blank. oh well it may seem weird to some people but there are a lot of times i jsut want to go silent and thoughtful. but they'll all start to suspect that i'm upset or depressed and start prying. and since it's freaking easy for me to spill my guts out if they ask, i gotta pretend. the masquerade will never end. not for me. fake smiles and laughter.. who can tell? |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
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