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20060507 : 7:31 PM
mis nuahs's sms is FREAKING ME OUT. i STILL think it's a prank. i'm SO gonna confront him tomorrow. i can't stand this. how come i always get paired with all the wrong people.. .. and this one is majorly wrong.. it seems like i'll never be able to get a decent match.. .. ARGH. what am i thinking. this is not the time! *shakes head* lessee.. geography paper and chem practical tomorrow. the latter is a formidable killer that will make my heart stop. X/ geog - i can just envision that miss wong cackling eagerly as she scrutinizes my answer script and happily regurgitates all her wondrous criticism which never fails to massacre my hopes of getting even a B. i just watched I Not Stupid Too yesterday, made me cry buckets. it was really very heartbreaking, a complete emotional rollercoaster ride. i've been really down and out over my appearance lately. not just what i wear, but how i physically look. i know i'm not pretty -i think that's an understatement- but i sometimes wish i was more than average. i just have a pretty low self-esteem about myself, but maybe i don't show it. even when people say hurtful things about my looks, i may just laugh it off and fire a retort back but deep down inside it's killing me slowly. i care too much about my outside because .. i think.. because of That Incident. it's not an excuse. i know that it's the inside that counts, and i try to be the best that i can be, but sometimes, when someone says something about me, it really does rip my confidence apart. guess i'm that vulnerable huh. it's pathetic. ironically my art paper is on 'concealed'. i'm choosing to research on how Asian women try so hard to conceal the physical flaws by surgery or cosmetics when they don't have to because it's natural forms they should be proud of, not ashamed of. such hypocriticism. |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
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