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20060917 : 7:07 PM
it is so amazing how accustomed we get, how we take for granted, the natural way material things play their role in our lives. for example, even as i sit here now typing, listening to my music on the speakers, i can't possibly imagine how empty and desolate the music in my life was without the bass. same as when now i have finally come to see how my poor comatose nano had such an important position in my life, being my barrier to shut out reality on those long and lonely bus rides. when i look at the room i'm studying; the air-conditioner ready to blast cool air at the touch of a remote, the notebook sitting so matter-of-factly on my table, the wall cabinets my Da installed simply because i asked.. all these things seemed to have come so naturally and so deservingly. but when i open the shutters and gaze out, feeling the cold wind howl into my face, i feel a strong sense of guilt gnawing at me, a despairing nolstagia tearing at my soul. i have a lot to thank my parents and my friends for, i realize. the warm home they give me, the unwavering support they raise, the matter-of-fact reassuring i'll-be-there-for-you smiles the flash in moments of uncertainty.. it makes me want to cry in agonizing bliss. how blessed can we be, to live in a modern society, with the latest technology at our fingertips, and yet, it seems like the most important thing is always out of our reach. we may have the key in our hands, but can we find the keyhole? |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
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