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20060530 : 9:36 PM
the chinese Os are over! *big sigh of relief* but now comes the months of slogging.. *bigger sigh of weariness* anyway, on to happier things. i found out that the Ouran Host Club is gonna be at Cosfest!!!! *jumps up and down and squeals excitedly* i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait !!!! i just hope Finchan and Anechan can also make it.. it's twice the fun with your friends around yeah? :) miss ho's wedding is also this sat, i wonder what i'm going to wear.. plus i'm flying off to china this sun as well - eeks, so many exciting things happening!! >< ok, must mellow down. chill.. i'm wondering if it was a bad idea to collect boku ni natta watashi. i mean, book 4 is kinda sick.. humms. i'm afraid i will be labelled as a pervert or summat.. which is so not true. i just have a fetish for crossdressing mangas. their plots are just so complicatingly cool!! ah well. i'm scrolling through some funy cosplay pic thread now on sgcafe and it's hilarious. totally. speaking of which, i'm kinda nervous about my first cosplay. will i screw up? i hope not. will i get laughed at? i hope not. well, it's in dec, so got lotsa time to practice! i hope. lotsa hoping here. please, give me courage!
20060514 : 1:09 PM
MIDYEARS ARE OVER!!!! now my biggest problem is finding bling for cosfest. Roxanne informed me that just syaoran's costume would be 300. three bloody hundred. i know i can sell stuff, but i'm still worried. what if no one wants to buy anything? i'll be doomed.. i went to watch Poseidon the other day with Dinky, Chrissy and Simon Tempura. XD it was ok, not much plot, just about the thrill of getting out. but it was fine. watched late-night movie last night, Tristan and Isolde. James Franco was so hot there. funny how i've never heard of him though. Isolde's a cool name on paper, but not by mouth. .. i look at her soul and i see malice, vulgarity and greed. i look at my own and see the despair, failure and contempt and i despise myself even more.
20060507 : 7:31 PM
mis nuahs's sms is FREAKING ME OUT. i STILL think it's a prank. i'm SO gonna confront him tomorrow. i can't stand this. how come i always get paired with all the wrong people.. .. and this one is majorly wrong.. it seems like i'll never be able to get a decent match.. .. ARGH. what am i thinking. this is not the time! *shakes head* lessee.. geography paper and chem practical tomorrow. the latter is a formidable killer that will make my heart stop. X/ geog - i can just envision that miss wong cackling eagerly as she scrutinizes my answer script and happily regurgitates all her wondrous criticism which never fails to massacre my hopes of getting even a B. i just watched I Not Stupid Too yesterday, made me cry buckets. it was really very heartbreaking, a complete emotional rollercoaster ride. i've been really down and out over my appearance lately. not just what i wear, but how i physically look. i know i'm not pretty -i think that's an understatement- but i sometimes wish i was more than average. i just have a pretty low self-esteem about myself, but maybe i don't show it. even when people say hurtful things about my looks, i may just laugh it off and fire a retort back but deep down inside it's killing me slowly. i care too much about my outside because .. i think.. because of That Incident. it's not an excuse. i know that it's the inside that counts, and i try to be the best that i can be, but sometimes, when someone says something about me, it really does rip my confidence apart. guess i'm that vulnerable huh. it's pathetic. ironically my art paper is on 'concealed'. i'm choosing to research on how Asian women try so hard to conceal the physical flaws by surgery or cosmetics when they don't have to because it's natural forms they should be proud of, not ashamed of. such hypocriticism. |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
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