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20090326 : 7:50 PM
is it normal, that when someone asks for your opinion, your mind can draw a complete blank? if i can't find anything inside, is there something wrong with me? what if within your head, there's nothing of your own? no viewpoints, no feelings, no self? does that mean you're becoming less human with less emotion, or maybe on the contrary you're actually becoming more human with the fact that you have less and less of self? i feel hollow. like i'm missing something. sometimes i wish i was more opinionated. more pragmatical. more self-assertive. more make-up-my-own-damn-mind. most of the time, i don't mean the things i say. i wish i could say what i really meant, but i'm always holding myself back for some reason, i don't know why. guess i'm afraid. cowardy custard.
20090321 : 10:53 PM
is it just me or is the animation for toradora decreasing in quality? the days ahead seem figured out, i hope the result at the end of everything will come out the way i expect it to be.. and hopefully i get richer. money drop from the sky please. WILLPOWER AND DETERMINATION. WILLPOWER AND DETERMINATION. WILLPOWER AND DETERMINATION. WILLPOWER AND DETERMINATION. it's hard, but i hope i get back on track to what i'm supposed to be doing. /Taylor Swift's You're Not Sorry [CSI Remix] on repeat 
20090317 : 11:18 PM
it is 0815. i can't sleep. 0830 the skies are gray. i hope it doesn't rain! 0845 i check my results. i can't complain, satisfied enough for now. BUT IT STARTS TO POUR. 1000 the clouds dissipate. THE SUN THE SUN I SEE THE SUN AND BLUE SKIES. 1300 everyone is going to be late, but that's ok, because we all have a mutual understanding of each other's punctuality. hahaha. 1345 we finally are together!! so today was absolutely wonderful. headcount of 6, i think that's the largest number we've ever had so far! kudos to everyone who bothered to come, Char, Finny, Dinka, Christine, and the long-lost Sarah the weather was breathtakingly perfect, and the beach was almost deserted. sure, the water was opaque-ish as usual, with its distinct Singaporean muddy tea color, but the company was lovely. just wading in the water and talking makes everything so relaxing you're almost giddy from sheer pleasure. and it's been SO long since i had you girlfriends to talk to! /lonely i have no idea how the hell we stumbled through sec school without sharing about so much issues, but i guess that being separated now somehow makes us treasure these times we hang out, and everything is twice as fun now and everyone seems so much more bonded. to me at least, hahaha. did i mention that i love you guys? :D WE HAVE TO DO THIS MORE OFTEN. ALTERNATE TWICE AS FUN HANGOUTS AND HALF THE COST. :D j'aime le soleil.
20090312 : 8:20 AM
because there is nothing like a phone call or seeing someone face to face. at least i still get to see the friends i love when we hang out and stuff. call-wise, i think i only use my phone to a) wake people up b) call people when we get lost c) let the parental unit know if i'm eating dinner. sigh. what happened to the times when we could spend hours on the phone talking? and at least when you're on the phone, you can't keep someone waiting on the other end for half an hour or more. looks like that's the way with IM now. responses have a halfhour [or usually more] interval because people are always multitasking. what's the point of calling it instant messaging? somehow it seems like MSN makes everything so impersonal, it's so easy to fake what you're thinking. and when you say something sincere, you can't even feel it. the serious and genuine things are lost among the text vomit and emoticon spam. nothing feels real. /rant just my 0.02 [that kept me awake at 3am] that i had to regurgitate. ugh.
20090310 : 5:46 PM
 steamboat time! in honor of a certain someone's day :]  HF kept scooping food for everyone, like he was the dad or something. hahahaha. but Family Guy Award goes to Xavier for volunteering his place, his steamboat pot, and for preparing the ingredients even though it was kinda last minute. D: oh and much thanks to the Kenneths too, kinda awkward but fun even though i didn't know them that well. D:    the Overlord makes a face. some of the photos below cannot be explained because they were very obviously taken by someone laughing too hard to focus. [not me!]   you can't really see it here, but YM is holding Boss Chopsticks. the super huge type that can be used to impale people, or in this case, anything unlucky in the steamboat pot.       random hand A.  random hand A imitating Yang. random hand B giving not so random sign. soo.. yeah. it was fun. hope everyone had fun. whoopee. i thought it was a silly idea, but i'm happy it turned out quite alright. enjoy your Hennessy. haha.
20090307 : 8:53 PM
and after watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, i was particularly struck by something Elizabeth Abbot said. it went along the lines of that she "kept waiting, thinking that [i'd] do something to change [my] circumstances.. do something. such an awful waste. you never get it back.. wasted time." i don't want to wait for myself to do something. because it'd be too late then. i don't want to regret not doing what i could have done while i could. something i want to change about myself during these 7 weeks. to take more initiative. an excerpt from.. somewhere. :] |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
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