|
|
|
20120126 : 12:05 PM
it's the lunar new year. i scroll through Facebook albums of my family and friends celebrating, half-wishing i was there with them. not that i'm not enjoying myself here.. i've gotten accustomed to the idea of having two homes. it's actually pretty conducive to be away, so i can actually focus on school and art and not have to spend that time on other distractions, because here there's really nothing else i can do. i had a dream last night - or rather, a series of dreams..? it's fading from my conscious memory even as i type, but i try to remember as much of it as i can. i dreamt i was visiting my kin, and they were all together in a huge apartment. it was wonderfully nostalgic for me.. and then i was opening a door to a fair, and there were childhood classmates present. i was having fun and running up a flight of stairs and i run into a person.. in this dream i knew this person, i feel like i've known all my life. we get on a bus, and i see two people on a motorcycle speeding ahead of the bus, and driving off into the horizon ahead. i watch this, and i feel strangely sad. i wake up still with that sad twinge inside. how do you dream of someone you've never met and yet you feel like you know them? it's a very aching, haunting feeling. you wake up, searching for them, but you know they're not there. they don't exist, maybe not yet to you, maybe never in this life. |
the round one.
Just your average human specimen wanting to be something more. Also has an absurd fondness for potatoes and shoes, among other things.
what i want.
(these are clickable nudge nudge)bicycle!!!1! PLAYSTATION3 tv/HD screen for PS3 POP OP figures sutadora figure ps1 (not the console) 幸せ / きらめき / 自由 AMAZON WISHLIST html ref from dougnutcrazy |